Looking back on all 16 months trying to get knocked up really wasn't all that bad. Yeah the first rounds of Clomid were a little crazy, the upsetting feeling after every negative pregnancy was heartbreaking, but I can honestly say it really wasn't as bad as it was at the time of all the craziness. While I am still having a hard time believing I am pregnant it's bittersweet thinking about our infertility journey. Do I ever wish it upon anyone? No not at all, am I glad I got to experience it....Yes, Yes I am! When I say this and I hope no one takes offence to this but it feels like I worked so much harder than other people did to get this far and I love it! I know there is always a reason why things happen and while I still may not know the exact reason this happened to us I can say I appreciate more things for it! My husband for one-who I didn't think would make it through the second round of treatments- has been a life saver, and while I may not act like it all the time...I love him with all my heart!
I appreciate my body more. Stopping smoking wasn't as hard as I thought it would be ~Last smoke was Dec 27th~ and while I still wish I could have a cocktail or two ~last drink Jan 11~ I do feel better it was all out of my system before these fertility meds kicked in.
I am so thankful for everything.....
Love,
Little Miss Emotional Today
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